I don’t know why i’m thinking of this, but it’s late at night and i’m thinking about how being into Hannibal somehow enhances my enjoyment of Sherlock…
It’s so strange, but because everything in the Hannibal universe is so dark and twisted and terrible, Sherlock seems all the more romantic and full of love. It didn’t seem like it at first, but being into something so absolutely fucked up where people are so terrible to each other really does remind me that Sherlock is fundamentally a romance about a detective. In all the relationships in the show you just see how much all of them are mutually concerned for each other’s wellbeing even when they like to pretend they’re not, in Lestrade hugging Sherlock like a son and Mrs.Hudson making breakfast for John and Sherlock giving up his life for John and ohhhhhh
Hannibal is set in a much colder, scarier world, where everyone’s good intentions are always so fucked up and never well-executed, and not just for the obvious candidates, like Hannibal with his affection for Will that ends up with Will in prison, but Jack beating himself up over ruining everything and Alana trying to reassure Will that she’ll get him justice- by proving that he was insane when he committed serial murder, all out of care.
It’s such a wonderful juxtaposition.
after listening to our mixdowns today, my sound teacher told me that despite the fact i’m a little behind on the editing learning curve, she thinks i’m a wonderful storyteller
and then another guy in the class chimed in and said that he thinks i’m a good speaker, which absolutely blew my mind because I don’t think that of myself at all
those things mean so much to me, considering that I want to be a story artist and i am like, just…
walkin’ on sunshine so hard right now
So my grandma called me last night while I was at the Hugh Dancy Q&A, and I called her back this morning to let her know why I didn’t pick up.
I start telling her "So, you know the show Hannibal? One of the lead actors-"
and she just goes “Oh, Hannibal! Of course, I DVR’d that last night, though I won’t have the chance to watch it until tonight.”
I literally just froze and went “You… you watch Hannibal?” I’m still in complete shock. My grandma is one of those grandmas who is constantly bringing you cookies and making you pasta, goes to church more than once a week, watches the Pope on TV and is generally put off by the level of violence in the clips on America’s Funniest Home videos. And i’m just sitting there as she starts telling me how much she likes HANNIBAL.
She goes, in her sweet, grandma voice "I was intrigued because I saw The Silence of The Lambs, and all those films with Anthony Hopkins, he’s so terrific. I don’t know, what he does with people, you know, the food, puts you off, but it’s strange, I find it very interesting!"
I start fangirling a little bit, like “Grandma!!! I had no idea? Omg I need to call you every Saturday to talk about it now!!!” and started talking about what Hugh said at the Q&A, especially regarding Hannibal himself and Mads Mikkelsen’s portrayal, she just goes (about Mads) "Oh, he’s so wonderful. He can act so creepy, but I hear that he’s really a sweet pussycat."
I’m just sitting and silently dying at this point, this is the greatest discovery I have ever made.
my anthropology teacher found me on the sidewalk after class today to compliment me on being the one who was willing to say I had no idea what a portion of the reading meant. He said it helped him out and that he appreciated the difficulty, because even in the PhD seminars that he’s a student in there’s still that fear among them to be the one to ask the stupid question.
And this makes no sense but it just completely made my day to hear that i’m doing something right in that class because this week I’ve felt so guilty for putting off the homework for other things, like I shouldn’t be there.
I’m walkin’ on sunshine i’m going to do all my readings for this week early and work on my animation project tonight and be such a good student.
2 weeks ago on February 24, 2014 at 03:34pm
we watched breaking bad in class
benedict cumberbatch is in my town
and i’m gonna see the full set of oscar shorts tonight and that means martin freeman in glasses
despite my pounding headache, homework and impending blood donation, life is good
i’m starting my transfer applications so that i can finish them up really early on in February, and then I just have the next few months to be at school and to think and decide what I want to do next, if I would feel better staying here or changing.
I feel really good about life right now, whatever choice I make, everything will be okay, and no matter what I do, I will always have the opportunity to change. i’m starting to accept that no choice I make now is going to 100% determine the rest of my life, and that I should just stop worrying so much. I’ve got myself this far and I can keep going.
also, once you get past the parts that smell kind of bad on hot days, NYC is a very lovely place. It generally smells more like coffee and bagels than dog pee once you get off my street.
sometimes I get irrationally jealous when is see people being so completely sure of what they are meant to do because I used to feel that and now I don’t feel that anymore and I feel completely lost and not passionless per se but like I have a lot of passions and there is no possible way to channel them all into one stream and reach potential
I was just reading this fic by bendingsignpost and Sherlock explains how his work is important by likening his mind to a tap on the side of a mountain, and all this water flows out all over, just trickling down, but how when he’s doing his work, it’s like it’s all concentrated in one stream and actually doing something, as opposed to when he’s doing anything else and he feels useless
I feel like that, except I don’t even have the knowledge of that one stream where I can feel important concentrating all my energy
I like art but sometimes it feels so self-involved and not intellectual enough, the way I do it. Like, what is it for, besides making myself happy?
and I like biology and anatomy but I feel like I’m not good enough at calculus to ever be competitive for med school and if I didn’t do that I could just major in bio but then what
I like kids and maybe I could teach art if I went and majored in illustration but I feel like my mom thinks that teaching art is below me mentally because she has this view that art teachers are all just failed artists
I know that I’m in an amazing film program but I don’t even feel competitive here because I don’t have this passion to direct or make a whole movie in general I just want to make beautiful pictures and images and that’s not the same thing, and I don’t want to be an editior or work in lighting or sound and most likely that’s what I’m currently preparing myself for.
I like Literature and languages and anthropology and I think I’m good at a bunch of things and I’ve always assumed I would work in art to some capacity, but I really want it to be important as well as intellectually fulfilling and I’m so scared that I’ll never reach that and find my full potential or anything like that
I just feel really lost and like I don’t have passion for anything sometimes, even the things that I enjoy don’t seem important and I’m just literally sitting here waiting for new Sherlock and drawing things that make me sad
I want to be optimistic and say I’ll find it soon but it’ll never come soon enough, I’m already a freshman in college and running out of time and I really wish I could take a year to work or travel and figure myself out but I don’t think my family would go for that and I’d be so out of the loop for life and damn everything
There’s a difference between being a good person and a good character, and for some reason a lot of people seem to have trouble separating them. At the end of it all, while I do believe that Mary has done what the authors promised she wouldn’t (by coming between John and Sherlock), and while I do want her out at some point, she’s definitely a person of interest here.
At this point it’s hard to argue that Mary’s a good person. She was a contract assassin for god’s sake, married John under the pretense of a completely false identity, and is about 99.8% probably Moran, right-hand sniper of James Moriarty.
However, at the moment I think she’s still a good CHARACTER. Her past, her allegiances and her motives are mysterious, she shot Sherlock Holmes and is still hanging around him and John. She’s brimming with pure potential for the next season, as much as I pray that one of the next three episodes ends with her getting bumped off.
I don’t have to like her as a person or approve of the way John’s relationship to her is playing out to be able to appreciate the fact that while she’s still around, she’ll make things interesting. As long as all of this detour eventually helps bring John and Sherlock’s partnership to the foreground, I’m up for anything.
basically the main opinions I had about this episode (which aside from the massive error of John’s total lack of character I actually enjoyed)
They did a pretty great job adapting the Milverton case except come on Holmes and Watson get so lovey in that one they literally hold hands twice and are also concerned for each other’s safety
Sherlock has proven himself sorry 1000000x over and god my heart is in pieces he loves john so much
John needs to have some sort of explosion or just some reaction to something at some point
Mary is Moran and if she’s sticking around next season John and Sherlock better get their shit together and realize she is still dangerous. Shouldn’t have burned that flash drive.
fuck me for saying this but I’m excited for Moriarty to be back I can’t even pretend I’m not pleased
We are getting Moran and Moriarty and we better get something good